I sometimes wonder if I was also just a selfish, inconsiderate little jerk when I was 10 years old too because 3 of my 5 boys are just about 10 and everyone of them is a jerk so it got me wondering if being a selfish jerk was just a 10 yr old thing?
Did all 10 yr old boys just hit a asshole phase in their pre-teen years or are my kids actually just really jerks. They already made him forget why he had even first come in here...
Anyway, as I was saying, I fucked up bad once again last night. I quit my shit job and I did it like I make all my major and important decisions, without thinking about it at all. Like a true Winner.
I'm really furious at myself right now though, but in my defense, I did really hate that fucking job. I did too, it really was just awful.
But that's not the issue, I needed that shit job, and I fucking knew I did. I really did. That was the issue.
If I was a responsible adult and not a complete moron I would have went in that building late and kept my job just because it was the right thing but being retarded I just put my car back in drive and came on home. A winner on every single opposite day. A special dumb ass who once more had just chucked a fkn wrench square into the gears of his life without one thought and screwed sh*t up again.
I should have went inside. But, that's what a responsible adult would have done. Not me though, nope. Despite knowing that I couldn't quit I did anyway and drove home.
And that's why I cant stand my skin right now. I'm so angry with me right now. I mean, come on, it's Adult time, and it has been for awhile now and I have got to grow the fuck up soon or file disability for being too retarted to keep a job.
36 yrs old and although he hadn't yet, and getting a little bit concerned that he may not ever actually grow up.
Like a white trash 'Peter Pan' all fat, and unemployed.
An uglier sadder one that lived every day in real life and wrote shit all day for free. Just an unemployed 36 year old comedy writer with nothing going on or well at all except for his stunning good looks and good hard wiener.
Girls looked for much more than that nowadays, it was sad...
Did all 10 yr old boys just hit a asshole phase in their pre-teen years or are my kids actually just really jerks. They already made him forget why he had even first come in here...
Anyway, as I was saying, I fucked up bad once again last night. I quit my shit job and I did it like I make all my major and important decisions, without thinking about it at all. Like a true Winner.
I'm really furious at myself right now though, but in my defense, I did really hate that fucking job. I did too, it really was just awful.
But that's not the issue, I needed that shit job, and I fucking knew I did. I really did. That was the issue.
If I was a responsible adult and not a complete moron I would have went in that building late and kept my job just because it was the right thing but being retarded I just put my car back in drive and came on home. A winner on every single opposite day. A special dumb ass who once more had just chucked a fkn wrench square into the gears of his life without one thought and screwed sh*t up again.
I should have went inside. But, that's what a responsible adult would have done. Not me though, nope. Despite knowing that I couldn't quit I did anyway and drove home.
And that's why I cant stand my skin right now. I'm so angry with me right now. I mean, come on, it's Adult time, and it has been for awhile now and I have got to grow the fuck up soon or file disability for being too retarted to keep a job.
36 yrs old and although he hadn't yet, and getting a little bit concerned that he may not ever actually grow up.
Like a white trash 'Peter Pan' all fat, and unemployed.
An uglier sadder one that lived every day in real life and wrote shit all day for free. Just an unemployed 36 year old comedy writer with nothing going on or well at all except for his stunning good looks and good hard wiener.
Girls looked for much more than that nowadays, it was sad...
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